Publisher Chris Todd told Dailymail that Kim Porter sent close friends a USB containing her diary before her death in 2018. These documents were turned into a 60-page book called Kim’s Lost Words. The book was published on September 6, just days before Diddy (Sean Combs) – rapper and founder of Bad Boy Records – was arrested and charged with extortion and sex trafficking.

According to the book, Kim Porter said Diddy would throw parties with fancy names that attracted a lot of people but were really just wild parties. “We not only had threesomes, we also switched partners. Our sex life was crazy,” Kim wrote.

Kim said Diddy slept with both women and men, including famous rappers and singers. During their on-and-off relationship from 1994 to 2007, the model and Diddy were said to have had an open relationship. Kim revealed that she had a relationship with legendary rapper Tupac Shakur before his death in 1996.

The memoir notes that Kim Porter once found sex tapes of Diddy in her bedroom basement and copied them to protect herself as part of a plan to distance herself from the rapper.

“Some of the tapes contained things I never expected. Things that happened at gay parties and young men (including two Hip-Hop stars who were managed by Diddy and a pop star who was only 18 at the time),” the book reads.

The publisher confirmed that Kim Porter’s friends still have copies of Diddy’s sex tapes and they are willing to give them to him if he wants them.

In the book, which is billed as Kim Porter’s diary, she also recounts the times she was abused by Diddy. The model revealed that early in their relationship, the rapper slapped her hard after she was confronted about having sex with a male executive. Another time, she accused Diddy of pushing her to the ground and holding her at gunpoint to prevent them from breaking up. She described Diddy as “a scary monster”.

Kim and Diddy had three children together during a relationship that lasted more than a decade. The model died suddenly at her home in November 2018, reportedly from pneumonia. In her final diary entry, now included in the book, Kim said she was seriously ill and texted friends that “he got me” before calling 911.

Chris Todd said he edited Kim Porter’s diary to help her “come out and tell her story”, six years after her death. Chris said he initially used the pseudonym Jamal T Millwood, not using his real name because he feared danger. “But now I am ready to speak out after the recent arrest of Sean Combs. The federal government has finally taken action and I feel safer speaking out,” Chris explained.

Diddy (Sean Combs) was arrested in New York on September 16 on three charges: conspiracy to commit extortion; sex trafficking by force, fraud or coercion; and transportation to engage in prostitution. Prosecutors’ indictment states that the 54-year-old star “abused, threatened and coerced women and others to gratify his sexual desires, protect his reputation and conceal his conduct for decades.” The memo also says Diddy organized multi-day orgies where the rapper and his guests and prostitutes used drugs and ecstasy and required IV fluids to recover.

Diddy has denied all charges. However, at the request of prosecutors, the judge denied the rapper bail. Diddy is currently being held in a New York jail awaiting trial.

Before his arrest, Diddy had been sued by multiple people for sexual abuse and battery. Since 2023, the rapper has faced a total of 11 civil lawsuits. Diddy’s ex-girlfriend, singer Cassie Ventura, was the first to speak out. She said Sean Combs brutally beat her, had group sex in a hotel, and raped her.

Rodney Jones, a music producer who worked with Diddy, claims in the lawsuit that he was “forced to solicit prostitutes and engage in sexual acts for Mr. Combs’s pleasure” in 2022 and 2023. Rodney said the underage girls attended sex parties at Sean Combs’ homes in Los Angeles, Miami and New York, as well as on a chartered yacht in the Virgin Islands.